MrazmaryCarabelle♥

//Thursday, May 31, 2012 11:58 PM

Lana Del Rey - Born To Die

// 4:06 AM

Day by Day. It still goes on.

Things were suppose to be better.

and yes, people out there,

guess you guys were right.

"Happiness is not the destination, but its journey."

tend to lose something that I never thought how important it would be to me.

Yet, that's a choice,

a choice which is exactly what I wanted at a moment.

give me a second chance, and i will make a same choice with more effort.

Was it really just a mistake, a misunderstood ?

Shall be glad then, at least we woke up from the mistake in a short one month.

Never able to get you nor follow what you want, cause it's contradict if you read back what you said.

but you seem never realise that.

starts to ignore all the incoming text,

ttyl turn to be more like "ttm again and i'll see whether if i'm free"

too lazy to give a damn to anyone, not in purpose tho.

After all, things are still going fine and nice.

Starts to miss some people, some moment...

the one who used to stand by my side and motivate me every time i feel like falling.

the one who has a kind heart and forgiving,

the one who stood up and cheered for me when i don't even know what am i presenting in front there.

the one who cheered me up when i'm totally stuck between friends and spm conflict

the one who look into me and gave me great courage to continue presenting when i'm already start shivering.

the one that tell me not to give up and we will work hard together.

and those who tried hard to give me everything.

*big tight hugs*

//Wednesday, May 23, 2012 12:00 AM

累人的天空

最终还是回到了原点，
呆呆站在镜子发愣，然后狂哭；
凌晨还未入眠，枕头却已被浸湿。
我依然胆小怕事。
很努力的想要跨越框框，
每每向我挥手的却是失败。

每天出门化妆很累，
睡前卸妆更疲惫。
信心就免谈了，
只是不段地提醒自己，
也只能往前走，
回头就会一无所有，然后崩溃。

尽量的不去介意，
尽量的当作毫不知情，
疲惫得无法在管了，
很自私，
但我可能会跨，
可能会倒，
然后可能再也筑立不起我仅剩的那一点点信心

他人不留心的一句話
也能像根針
來至四面八方

對於我的一生，我的存在
第一次，
覺得毫無意義
第一次，
好想罷休
第一次，
好想一了了之

//Sunday, May 13, 2012 4:06 PM

Kelly Clarkson - Stronger

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger,

stand a little taller :>

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger,

standing a little taller every time.

A new starts,

towards a different destination.

Silence and without blames nor self pitiness,

knowing that's a fool and pointless.

Cause I don't need anyone to understand anything i did.

// 3:18 PM

Kelly Clarkson

Hey, Mr. Know It All.

//Tuesday, May 8, 2012 1:58 AM

words that have no way to be spoken.

This post is password protected

//Tuesday, May 1, 2012 10:38 PM

Secrets - OneRepublic (Cover by Tiffany Alvord & ThePianoGuys)

//Saturday, April 28, 2012 5:46 PM

Westlife - Hard To Say I'm Sorry

I will make it up to you. I promise to.

You're gonna be the lucky one.

人要忠於自己，只是有時候我們搞不清忠於自的哪一部分。

是忠於自己的愛，忠於自己的感覺，還是忠於自己的夢想？— 張小嫻

//Sunday, April 22, 2012 5:57 PM

Gone.

Something is just not right. fckup.

//Friday, April 20, 2012 10:54 PM

Far more to go...

" I have got your back "

From a team, that would be really motivating.

From the beloved, that would be lovely.

Learn to be a supporter like how the others supported you in your life.

Pat on someone and tell them they have got your back,

you'll feel good if you mean it.

How adorable these juniors are ! Cute max.

Kenneth, still hot as usual.

I did enjoy on that night.

We tend to forget many small simple moves in daily life that brings everyone together,

but never look down on it, it's magical.

The best part is when i see the council walked in from the back with a smile on each faces.

heard from the others seniors,

they gather and cheered for themselves before they walked in.

Between humans, there are always something in common and something contrast.

Accept and understand the imperfect.

Cause understanding doesn't mean tolerant.

you wouldn't need to always remind yourself to tolerant if you could understand.

waohoo ! peeps, it's story time !

is this part of the agenda ? or it's actually an impromptu ? (:

I bet they enjoyed.

At least to me, it's usually interesting to listen to a senior's experience and story.

Leo went and basically, stoned. Sakaii max.

hahahh. thankyouiloveyou ! ♥

//Saturday, April 14, 2012 1:18 AM

♥

Eugene and April's birthday celebration

@ La Bodega, Empire.

I wonder how all this happened.

Well obviously I still do feel weird at times,

cause I never thought you will actually turn out to be my first.

yeah mann, I'm fcking in love with my bestfriend.

RAWR ♥

Next up,

Hokkaido Cake ! ♥ from the sweetheart XinEr

soon to be chef ? (;

well, it's pretty nice i swear !

Yet rating of 5/10 for me,

blame the cupcake container ! it made it a max failure :O

it somehow stick on the cake and caused the bottom part of it fail to bulk up. /:

hohoho.

It's sucha bless when you have a friend that bake and cook for you (:

the best part is - they send it all the way to your house by themselves !

awww. thanks sweetheart.

I don't mind trying anything from you mann !

it's an honour tho (;

Just don't cook or bake some ~~disgusting~~ hilarious stuff for me, e.g Insects.

Feathers earring ♥

//Monday, April 9, 2012 12:39 AM

有時候的你，
怎麼也沒辦法了解,
在你的呵護下我卻是多麼的爭扎。

有時候再難受，
我也想咬緊牙根繼續衝刺，
雖也乏力，卻想往想要的方向前進；
你好意攔截，帶我走往所謂對的方向；
跟隨中卻免不了一絲絲的遺憾。

不吭一聲的以笑帶過那一刻，
比長篇大論的解釋來得簡單。
解釋有時太多餘。

因為，
大家彼此彼此，

都累過，也熬過。

//Thursday, April 5, 2012 9:49 PM

Krezip - I would stay lyrics

I have to learn, have to try,
have to trust I have to cry,
I have to see, have to know,
that I can be myself.

//Wednesday, April 4, 2012 11:30 PM

The girlfriend.

Appreciate someone who always there for you. (:

Just realize i actually missed out this photo in the previous post. (;

//Sunday, April 1, 2012 10:25 AM

Je t'aime

17th March, Evening,

A rather simple Bak Kut Teh dinner with the bunch

before visiting the juniors in their recruit's camp.

We can see how cute one could be,

We know how funny one could be,

Yet how strong they are mentally might be far from what we can imagine.

Oh my dear juniors !

They are basically creative.
Looking at them reminded me how timid I was last time.
I hardly spoke out and giving ideas,
till I finally realize that nothing wrong to have my own ideas,
accepted, ignores, or if worst comes to worst, it's taken as a joke and being laughed.
It's all alright.

The advantage of stating what you feel and what's your idea
is that the other person is not entitled to refute what you feel or think;
they can only fcking listen,
perhaps, state their own thought later on.

Back in my year, seniors were kind and friends are helpful.
Argument and minor fight ~~might~~ confirm happen,
but we know we have the same intention to make the troop better.
we'll never forget what's our end goal.
and I wonder all the juniors today, will they feel as grateful as I was last time.
Appreciate, maybe compromise when needed,
that's a way which never fail me to realize that
life is indeed beautiful with those people around me.

Went to the mamak after the cultural night,

siting in the mamak we used to visit when we were still in high school.

Tired face, eye bag are like some mini sausage under my eyes.

ROFL.

Sleepover (:

21st March, Judgement Day.

kthxbye, the result is totally fckup.

4A7B. ~~Inverted~~ thumb up. *roll eyes*

Went Pyramid with girlfriends and 2 ~~gentlemen~~ dude.

Had our lunch in dragon-i

Feel pretty guilty that I'm super mood spoiling that afternoon.

Thank God,

I'm lucky to born with awesome people who is there to support me when I'm down.

♥ Parents, siblings, friends etc.

22nd March, Bio Field Trip to FRIM.

I look like some zombie with my eyes totally swollen.

okay, it doesn't make any sense when a zombie eyes get swollen. lol

owh whateva, this quote doesn't make sense anyway, ROFL

" You know why am I a zombie? Cause you steal my heart away :)))) -ChaoErn "

Was exhausted that day.

Though it wouldn't be any problem for me. (hey, i'm a scout !)

BUT MY GODNESS

I went there with a bunch of Tarzan and Jane, like seriously.

having loads of fun spending a day with them like this.

basically turn really hyper with Josephine and Clement.

They are the typical Tarzan and Jane I meant.

Imagine a girl trying to climb up to the top part of the waterfall,

end up falling into the water laughing with a soaked bb phone.

fuyhh, had a great day with all of them tho (:

23rd March, made a rather important decision.

telling myself, fck it. Just do it mann (;

Wouldn't how it will end up if don't give a damn try.

25th March. Makan in Baptist Church.

Hershey got her cert passing the obedience training.

and now she is a CGC.

These people here,

they are friendly and dogs lover.

Enjoy having dinner and chatting around with them (:

owh, foods was simple yet delicious, thumbs up !

If anyone fail to realize any diff of my hair in the precious photo,

nahh, this is it !

yes, i dyed purplish brown, end up, I see no difference at all :P

until i keep on flashing on it and of course, the photo is edited.

ROFL, that's why the whole photo is purple.

Sweet little cupcake from the sweetheart, Junyi.

is pretty nice tho! :D

and super like the pink polka dots mini cupcake container !

cute max.

// 2:02 AM

Wanted to update my blog,

upload all the photos from 17th March till the most recent,

and i start writing nonsense again. sleepy max.

shall redo it and post it up tml, perhaps.

//Thursday, March 22, 2012 1:32 AM

//Sunday, March 18, 2012 6:07 PM

BIGBANG - BLUE M/V

Have no idea at all why am I actually listening to korean songs now,
which I usually don't, cause I can't understand what they singing at all *roll eyes*

but, hahah, it's actually quite nice though I have total zero idea what they singing. ;)

//Friday, March 16, 2012 12:47 AM

Mr. Know It All

//Wednesday, March 14, 2012 12:06 AM

Ambitious.

View back my blog post. and I'm totally shock.

wtf am i writing ? like seriously.

Is there anyone out there who are just like me ?

when I'm about to fall asleep,

I tend to write nonsense and scribbler on my paper work, so on typing.

I can be writing an essay

and woke up the next morning realizing it ends with math equations,

and mixed with some chinese words and maybe some words that i have no idea at all what it is.

I tend to say something abnormal and funny when I'm half sleeping.

There's a night where i woke up suddenly,

and my phone rang, coincidentally.

I'm walking like a sleepwalker,

I heard the noise, but without realizing it's my phone ringtone.

I bet sis was quite shock,

I actually repeatedly shouting sorry at her when she's telling me,

" meii, your phone.."

I walk out the room just like that, like a dead body with no soul.

*craps, this is creepy now -.- *

i walked straight to the toilet, siting on the toilet bowl,

oh well, I'm awake. as in real awake.

Is like a bell rang beside my ear and woke me up to use my brain and rethink.

I'm pretty shock by my abnormal action, but mostly filled with the super embarrassing feeling.

went back to my room. act like I'm still sleepy,

I said to my sis,

" Ignore me,

I damn tired I don't know what am I saying just now,

ignore my phone also laa..nights ! "

Then, cover myself with blanket, continue sleeping.

E.Exam in 4 days time.

visiting juniors in 2 days time,

Having gathering and dinner with dog trainers in 3 days time,

Field Trip in between exams period,

Lots more things that are not mention happening in this month, March

Gahh, I'm so gonna pluck off a wing from the Time,

It's flying fast tho.

Anyhow,

March, it's still an exciting month,

where i go through up and down,

being emotional, and being freaking hyper and out of control.

and I might ditch my blog for a period during my exams i guess. ):

//Tuesday, March 13, 2012 1:30 AM

Eye Mo - my new best friend.

Washed up,

and I hope I didn't actually hurt my eyes these few days.

clearing off make up always make my eyes feeling uncomfortable.

Eye-mo is always needed badly for the irritation.

or it's because the lack of sleep ? ROFL.

whatever it is. gahh. :D

This might sounds jakun,

but ahh, feel so artistic every time when i'm holding a eyeliner,concealer etc.

Got a feeling like imma doing some great art work #LikeAnArtist. :P

//Monday, March 12, 2012 11:05 PM

Sesame Street: Outdoors with Jason Mraz

awww.. sooo cute ! :D

//Saturday, March 10, 2012 11:46 PM

Mrazmary Carabelle ?

Dip Dye !

It's a trend for 2012 :O

I like the BLACK HAIR WITH BLUE DIP DYE in the last picture !!

gahh, if only my hair is still long /:

Look up ! What you see ?

It's my title, if anyone realize that I made some changes to my blog.

Mrazmary Carabelle ? WTF ?!

^ That's basically where Carabelle came from.

and ikr, wth is Mrazmary ?

~~MEANINGLESS~~

Rofl. It's just the combination of JasonMraz and Mary. That's all ?

I like JasonMraz, and I'm requested to put my name as Mary.

"Thanks" to this bimbo. :D

Darlini ♥

A super fun person ((:

and my camwhore-mate ! *pat pat* (;

Mrazmary Carabelle TanTzia-E ?

hahah. yeah, for now.

// 8:01 PM

I Won't Give Up

I can just keep on repeating this song like forever mann :D
Jason Mraz is just sooo fantastic.
Like his voice a lot, it's so unique, so warm.
after all, his "im yours" is my favourite song too ♥

I was repeating "i'm yours" 24/7 three years ago.
Found the song at my part time working place.
till all my part time mate were complaining and asked to change it. :P

urghh, *melts* his voice is shoooooooo...... just ♥ it !

i hope i wouldn't give up, but seem like i have to, sometime, perhaps.

//Friday, March 9, 2012 5:53 PM

Day and Night, Friday.

Went college with a simple make up, by myself.

and a pair of violet red pump heels.

I simply love Friday ♥

Had a small simple belated birthday celebration with huiyi.

spent a rather relaxing night with them.

It's fun to hang out with all the babes.

Thought it's just purely gossips, camwhore, and laughter.

And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating,

I'll be here patiently waiting,

To see what you find

-I won't give up- Jason Mraz

//Thursday, March 8, 2012 11:35 PM

When it breaks.

aww my bunny ):

it suddenly fall off from the shelf and broke /:

thought i would need some strength to take control of myself,

big big sigh, disappointed.

cause you never care, sucha fishmonger.

it's okay,

things will be alright, I still believe.

College should have be alright.

I need some college mate indeed. hahah.

as in some close mates.

So antisocial these days, or maybe all the while, I am.

When you feel the pain, though remained silence,

you know is time for you learn to be independent.

hey, did you even thought of where the heck i have been this few days,

since the last word of "ttyl" ?

Ego and unwillingness make believe that you do.

cause i was waiting for even a reply of "okayy"

sorry for everything, thought it would be better that way,

but somehow i guess i'm wrong.

cause things are over,

I didn't take it as a something precious,

cause i never thought that i will lose it one day.

and ended up i'm the only one

who says everything of my life, throwing complains and making guesses.

I'm over excited after the long depressed days

calm down, and rethink. I know it would never recover.

cause this time,

I starts to afraid, sucha useless timid mouse?

but yaa.

On the progress of learning to be brave tho,

like a child of 3-afraid of nothing.

//Wednesday, March 7, 2012 11:43 PM

周杰倫你好嗎《杰威爾官方》Jay Chou "How Are You" Official MV

I have been watching video and listening song the whole night...

with my books in front of me, sigh.

// 10:29 PM

We Are Young

This world is on my side, I have no reason to run.

// 6:23 PM

Bonjour ! :D

Happy 18th Birthday humann.

At the new environment, with all the new friends,

and I'm here to wish u have a great day over there ! (; have a blast !

I miss the olden days, a lot, but still,

we can't stay at a same spot like forever.

So keep going on, All the best in everything,

and we'll meet again when you're back again ! ;)

looking forward to see a whole new you,

perhaps, some new ideas on your “divine laws"

JOYEUX ANNIVERSAIRE !

Milk loacker is ♥

College was challenging,

Today, well, I kinda feel bad. ): not doing so well for the whole day.

my physic lab assessment is one of the best example.

Totally epic fail !

I stared at the questions, asking myself : "seriously ?! what's this ? :O"

The lab was like a freezer, cold max.

periods made me feel even not well. sigh.

hopeless i though, simply, i just wrote what i think i shall write,

no matter how, it will still wrong, so.. at least fill it up.

close the thin booklet of assessment.

" ......this paper is 2% of the whole......"

that's what caught my attention. Thank God.

at least it's not 8% or even 5% that kills. :3

anyway,

check this out peeps ! ♥

JOSEPH KONY 2012

It's indeed a great, touching video.

.Joseph Kony 2012.-make it visible.

Aloha ;)

// 1:08 AM

Not Enough Sleep

Happy 18th Birthday HuiYi <3

May all your dreams come true babe (;

have serious bad headache these 2 days,

wasn't feeling well, dizzy from the moment i woke up,

till back to bed.

Day wasn't totally fine.

but i'm pretty enjoying.

at least there's some moment that i get high and play hard.

owh well, i got 3 hours+ to sleep now. mann.

should update again next time,

perhaps, a proper one without complains.

am i too selfish to hold u on ? i hate guessing game, like seriously.

煩哪 !

//Monday, March 5, 2012 12:31 AM

aloha (;

//Saturday, March 3, 2012 12:07 PM

Keep Going On ! Hwaiting ! ;D

Have to complete my biology's presentation slide by today.

and lots more others stuff of course.

woke up with a rather bad mood.

thinking and listing all my works.

Tried hard to control, but failed, again, I send out a complain.

Went downstairs, baby hershey looking at me with again that innocent eyes.

aww, baby, you are freaking FAT freaking HEAVY !!

but it's okay ♥ hugs*

MARCH

It's really gonna be a hectic month.

the worst fact is,

it's most probably gonna continue to be like this

for the next 7 months.

still,

no matter how,

I need to find my way to adapt to the situation.

FACEPALM*

and STOP complaining.

thank God,

received a late reply when i have already calm down.

prevent me from being a complaining machine with no work done.

//Tuesday, February 28, 2012 2:12 AM

warmness, that i almost forgotten.

- : geeegee. i dont like today.
  
  : whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?
  
  : idk
  
  : what happen today? :D
  
  : a few things ? hah.
  
  : dont emo la ahhahah ! :D im here to brighten up your day !

//Sunday, February 26, 2012 10:50 PM

hahah ! got this in facebook.

somehow, it's quite true.

But fck it laa.

i'm pretty sure too, never again (: